Psalm 56:13 – You have delivered me from death and my feet from stumbling that I may walk before God in the light of life.
As you are coming to the end of an era, the end of your high school career, I encourage you to reflect on God's faithfulness in the last few years of your life. I encourage you to reflect on the His presence in your life rather than the regrets that you have or the mistakes you made; focus on the light of life rather than the darkness and by this you will draw nearer to God.
During the periods in my life when I desire to be close to God, I feel a distinct yet subtle shift in thought. While I still have times of loneliness and melancholia, I am aware that they are transient feelings rather than permanent states. I have, beneath those feelings, a deeper longing for God’s transformative peace and his unconditional love. Without his Word guiding and comforting me, I would be in despair; I would be helpless; I would be emotionally drained and spiritually dead. But through His grace, He has delivered me from death.
I am often consumed with how people view me; I want to be loved by everyone and I will hide parts of my identity in order to impress someone or avoid conflict. Sometimes I get so lost in the process and game of impressing people that I get confused on where I’m headed, what my goals and priorities are and making sure those I love know they are loved. I can get so wrapped up in myself and how others perceive me that I stumble. But when I am pushing toward God, he balances me. He has kept my feet from stumbling.
I’m not exactly certain of what ‘letting God guide me’ looks like. It is a foreign concept, as I prefer to do everything by myself. All I know is that I am ready to surrender my anxiety, despair, jealousy, inadequacy, self-deprecation, pride and selfishness. I am ready for those vices not to consume and control me; I know I will never be completely rid of them, but I also know that God wants to bear my burden for me so that I can experience boundless joy and transcendental peace through his unconditional love. He lets me walk before him in the light of life. And I am grateful.\
Written by Tori, a student at UT, Austin.